Can I have some opinions on my current station in life?

You need to get help from an organization that helps women in abusive relationships. Look up "Social Services Organizations" in the phone book, and there will be something like "Domestic Violence Intervention". Call them, and let them know what is happening. The local police department can also help you get in touch with the appropriate help if you cannot find it in the phone book. Do it right now, don't wait.