Please help. I must admit that I am near suicide?

I am sooooo sorry but don't even think about suicide. You've got your whole life ahead of you. Just because you've got rough parents doesn't mean your not gonna get anywhere in your life but don't hate on them. I honestly think you should see a counsler because (I know it seems like a waste of time) but it actually helps. And think of the things you would be mssing n your lifetime?? Sorry I got all dr phil on you but this is important. Hope I helped :)