Wednesday, January 11, 2012
Wat do you think about this?
okkkk sooo i really like this guy. he goes to my church and school. he is in 11th grade....and well im in 9th. hes gonna be 17 in april and i turn 15 in july....but he told me age is just a number baby lol. but something is bothering me....he used to text me first all the time and we used to stay up late on the fone for hoursss and hours! but now i ask if he can talk on the phone and he always says he is busy and stuff....maybe he is but idk. also he doesnt text me first anymore....so i just dont text him at all unless i cant take it anymore and i just text him first. so i asked him why he likes me and he said, "Your athletic. Competitive and y in a good way. your nice. you have great tastes in just about everything. your smokin hot. you have good vaules. your pretty much nothing short of amazing" and i was like woah lol. aslo he asked me to send him a pic and i was like nahhh i look really bad and he said highly doubtfull and i was like fine i will send it but i look terririble! and so i sent it and he said "I want to see you when your standards say you look good. Cause my standards say you do now." and i was like well its very rarely that i do look good... ok but anywayssssss he told me he lost his virginity at 14.....and hes had with his past three gf's....and also like two days ago he was like how can you trust me? and i said cuz your honest to me and he said well im not honest about everything and i said wat do you mean and he said it was more than three gf's....and i was like wow...but i feel like if i do date him then i feel like i mite be expected to have and me and him already had the convo over it and he said it mite be hard to have an abstinence relationship but he said he wants to make it work but just recently he told me, "i dont want to hurt you if im not able to keep my self control when im around you..." and i didnt no wat to say....but anyways today i texted him sayin hey handsome :] and he hasnt texted me back and that was like 4 hours ago! :[ oh and btw he keeps telling me that he isnt good enough for me and i just hate it when he talks like that.....so i sent a really long text message.......it said "uhm your crazy. I like you the way u are rite now. Not some pic perfect guy that i dreamed of....wow give me some credit am i not allowed to like you? also u need to stop doubting urself sayin oh im not great i dont no why you like me blah blah blah...i like youuuuu alottt nd i can prove it. Everytime i get a txt i check my fone realy fast nd if its nawt u i get flustered...but if it is you i get erflies nd i start smiling...whenever i had walked to ur car i get nervous and tell myself wow dont blow this one up woops dont trip there dear...nd wen ppl ask me about u i just smile and cant help it...wen my day sucked it was great that u actually texted me bak...i feel like im not good enough for you nawt the other way around...i have noooo idea why ppl tell lme im pretty wen i htink i look like crap. i have no idea why u doubt urself all the time but its very frustrating...like VERY! nd i cant get the point accross that i really like you alot but it never seems to get that part in your brain clicking and sayin woah she really does like me i really need to keep her around.also wenever i talked to u in person its like whiplash...ur beautiful..im not. i feel like im actually important wen im with you...i thaught it was gonna be awkward but it wasnt it was like i had all these things to talk aobut with you. its amazing i dont even have to think of wat to say around u i just say my mind and you dont care or judge me..." and his reply was "wow...Your thumbs have got to be killin you right now...and i only doubt myself because i know wat i can do and i know i could hurt you and i really dont want that. and the whole erflies thing you will get over. i am pretty sure you didnt feel that during these types of convos. and you are very attractive and dont talk about yourself bad like that. thats one thing i cant stand" and i said "JOIN THE CLUBB!! u tlk bad about yourself all the time so wat makes it different for me to bag on myself? sorry if u want me to stop i will." he said "because i only bag on my actions. not my actual character or looks. other ppl can do that if they want to." so i said" ugh fine but ugh wateva fine! dont bag on ur actions eitha..." and he said" welli cant talk about them at all then cause i sure as hell cant talk good about them" so yea thats bout it....tell me wat u think of him....culd it work? is he to old for me? but ughhhh i really like him soooooo badddd
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